Why don't they sms to me?
Sms is a convenient way to communicate. When one don't have the time to meet and chat, sms provides one a chance to keep in touch. I often see them sms to each other. I know they set time to meet up or for meal using sms. If only they will sms me. Especially now, more than ever, as I have chosen to only talk if via sms. But why should they? I am not their friend.
Only when they look for someone to change shift do I get sms from them. They don't even bother to talk to me or ask me along for meal, even when I am around. They will just walk away. Heck lah, why should I care about them? I am not interested in making friends with them anyway. Though the feeling of being unwanted do get to me, even from strangers.
I will rather wish that those I seek as friends ask me. But they too don't bother with me. I am just a nobody. They have other friends. Not having me around is nothing to them. Haiz. Why am I so wanting their friendship? Why do I care so much for them? It is just me. Stupid me, caring for friends who don't bother if I am around or not. But I miss not seeing and talking to them. haiz
I try not to sms to them. I try not to feel sad if they don't reply to my sms when I do. For the number of sms I did send, there were more that I didn't send because I do not want to irritate them by keep sending smses. I don't mind late reply, as long as I get one. But when no reply came, it does hurt me, as it seems to me that I am not worthy of getting a reply. How else can I think of it as it happened not once, but so many times?
I miss sms. It is my only mode of communicate now. And that I am deny also ..... haiz
Parting is such ...
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It is easy to miss someone, but hard to forget that person, especially you
are close, have strong feeling for that person. So don't stay away, keep in
touc...
14 years ago
