My new handphone SE660i is not in the photo. Mostly using the N6110i. I am glad that I got this phone. My handphone is only good for the mp3 function and the occasional photo taking. And the internet surfing. Without anyone to sms or call, the handphone is practically silence.
So why am I still constantly changing to a newer model? I guess I enjoy new toy. So the N6110i is a good toy to have. With nobody to sms, I just switched on the GPS and watched the journey on my handpone as the bus went from point A to point B. Used to sms to them, but they don't want to sms me anymore. I consider myself lucky when I do get any reply. Now, there is one person less to sms. Though I had cut down the smses to them, I still need to sms. So it really hurts me that she didn't want me to sms at all, especially as she was the one that I started to open up, using sms to communicate. Sms is a convenient way for me to express myself to people I care, and keeping in touch. But alas, it seems they are not interested in keeping in touch with me.
Time and time again, the thought of closing myself came to mind. Now, I felt like doing so again, stop blogging as I don't want to open up my feeling. As long as I want to share my feeling and thoughts, I will want a close friend. I don't know what to do. Maybe I will avoid blogging about my personal feeling, telling myself that nobody want to hear anyway. I want to be cold, unfriendly. Maybe then, I will not get hurt easily if nobody wants me. Maybe then I can stand on my own again, be a loner once again.
I have nice handphone but have no use for a handphone actually. I can always use an MP3 player or a PDA, which by the way I do have both haha. Even now I am eyeing the new SE 850i 5megapixel cybershot. Crazy, ain't I? Maybe I am crazy.
Crazy enough that it is better that nobody be my friend, as they are better off without me ... or they will suffer under my insanity.
If my handphone is going to be silent, then, I will be silent too!
Enough said!
