Christmas is over

Christmas is a little better this year. Though I was hoping it could be better, I am satisfied.

I was lucky to have a little chat-time with Nd. Just a short time, but it made a lot of difference to my Christmas. I still haven't listen to any Christmas song, apart from those I heard at shopping malls. That I can't avoid, also having spent a lot of time at a few malls. Doing shopping, what else haha. Shopping over for this year? I don't thinks so haha. I did some more shopping yesterday. Christmas is over, but the shopping isn't hehe

I think I should try to bring back my interest in photography again next year. I had bought a camera recently but didn't have the chance to really test it out. Perhaps that should occupy my mind, so I don't have to think so much of my problems. Especially friendship, or the lack of it. I will then not have the free time to want to spend time with people. Yes, I need to bring back my "old skills", if I can call it that haha.

2008 is coming in a few days time .....

2XS

It was a busy weekend for me. Still doing shopping ... for myself and my dear haha. Well, I have to keep my dear company, and if she buys, I buy too haha.

But the interesting part of Saturday which I was looking forward to was my maiden visit to Zouk. Heard a lot about the place but I haven't stepped inside it yet, till that night. The event was "Code:Edge", a dance battle organised by Studio Wu. The door was suppose to open at 7pm but it was way passed that time when we finally got to go in. By then, there was a long queue, but we were lucky to be among the early few in the queue. I don't know what to expect of the place really, but I was thinking that it would be huge, so was disappointed that it was smaller than I thought. Still, it is bigger than DXO.

Then it was another hour wait before the competition really began. The host was none other than Sheik, who never failed to joke about his weight. That is good, being able to laugh at oneself. He definitely entertained the audiences.

It was a good competition, every dancers, solos or groups, were equally talented and showed good dance moves. Having seen a few competitions already, I can definitely say that Singapore has some good dancers. Maybe not as strong in delivery as those in US, but there is hope for the dancers here. Whether they are proficient in jazz, hiphop or break etc etc they are keeping the dance scene here alive. Even one of the foreign judge commented that it was wrong to whoever says there is no future in dances here. The many dance competitions prove it. Sure, we may lag behind most times, but in time, our dancers can be as good as most dancers from overseas.

Besides the contestants, there were also a few dance demos at Zouk that night, and I felt the highlight was the demo by the judges from 2XS. They were fantastic! Awesome! to say the least. They showed what true dancing is all about.

Sunday was dining and shopping. I had lunch at Breeks and again for dinner. Dinner was because we had no choice as other places were either packed or we were not interested in their menu, well, the prices to be more exact haha. In the end we had to settle for Breeks as we were too tired and hungry to search for other food outlet.

Monday was back at Cafe Cartel at Tampines. We can't resist the set lunch as we haven't tried their Monday set. We realised that the outlet here doesn't serve the set C. More shopping after that, then went back to Parkway to look for some presents we needed. Then buffet dinner at Parkway Thai. We immediately decided to eat there when we saw they had pepper crabs, prawns, cuttlefish.

I found this video from youtube of 2XS which has 3 of the judges who were at Zouk. Enjoy ...

E51 for a 51year old

Okay .. I can't lie ... I got a new handphone again haha
Nokia E51 ... maybe not too nice to look at, but it is handy to own haha.

Coincidentally, I am 51 years this year, so E51 is a nice number. A good present for myself this christmas haha.

Been a good week for eating. I had Gelare on Tuesday, waffles at half-price is worth getting my teeth sink into. Of course adding on a scoop of mint ice-cream, together with fresh cream and chocolate sauce makes it so delicious.

Wednesday was lunch at Cafe Cartel. Haven't been there for a while so was surprised that the set now include dessert. For $9.50 per set lunch, it was good deal. So good that I went down on Thursday for another set meal haha. This time noticed the set C, spicy pasta dish, which was a good choice as the portion of chicken was generous. A good thing about Cartel is the free flow of bread. Bread is a good supplement to the soup. I had six slices of bread to go haha.

Friday was back to work. Wasn't a good day, had too many problems for a single day work. Glad I am off again, 3 days. So will only be back on Tuesday. So, in the meantime, it is back to shopping ..... and eating. Oops, I forgot I can't really afford to shop anymore. Oh well, see how haha.

Tonight will be going to Zouk, will be my first time there. Looking forward to it.

Happy Weekend everyone!

Good food and good company

It was a week of leave followed by a week of work. Then another week of leave currently. Only two more days to go ... sigh ... wish it can last. Not looking forward going back to work. At least I have my dear to keep me company and I get to eat and eat when I am on leave. Work means nobody to keep me company. I can only hope that S is working, as she is the only person who bother to ask me to join her when she goes for meal. But I know that I shouldn't expect it. I am learning to live my old ways again. There is a different between wanting to be alone and having to be alone. I don't like it, but it is my fate to be alone.

So what have I done the last couple of days? Besides shopping, I had some good meals. Saturday was late night shopping at CityLink, so had a meal at Raffles City foodcourt before going for the night shopping. Ordered a thai noodle, saw a caucasian having the same but his plate looked more interesting, nevertheless, it was still good to eat. Can't remember what I had on Sunday haha.

On Monday, had a good buffet at Pariss, at Marina Square, which offered plenty of seafood - crab, prawn, oyster, clam and mussel. Their dessert selections are good too, which is a must for me haha. A good meal is useless if it doesn't end with interesting and delicious dessert.

I had DF donuts yesterday at Suntec. The queue seems shortened nowaday. Not surprising if so, but maybe due to the time of the day that I happened to pass it.

The set lunch at Breeks now includes drinks as well. I had a set today, which I regretted not ordering the Cajun fish with pasta as it looked like a better deal than the pasta I had.

Ending the day, I ordered two pepper crabs at the neighbourhood coffeeshop for my dear to enjoy. I did managed to get a piece and some legs, but she enjoyed it, which is more important.

Hmm ... what will I have tomorrow, er that is today? Let me see ....

Turning Green

I am turning green. Not the environment-friendly green type though. I still can't accept the idea of reducing the plastic bags given to customer when the environment we live in doesn't provide a solution to dispose of our rubbish. I recycle my plastic bag. We need plastic bags, unless they welcome everyone dumping their rubbish in the bin without a bag.

Anyway, here are two of the green stuff I bought for myself

Green Lantern shoes haha

Ain't you people green with envy for me? haha

On Leave and Not Leaving

I like to go with her to see Su and her baby, but it will be too much to expect. Most of all, it will be a chance for me to spend time with Nd too. But if I could, I would have been invited. I don't want to be where I am not welcomed. I rather they be happy when they meet up.

This is my last set of leave to clear. Every year if I got my leave at this time, we would travel, even if just popped in to JB. But this year, I am not leaving Sg. But did went to KL the week before. So at least we went somewhere, though I was hoping to go JB at least (well, actually I had planned to go Tokyo but that is another story), but nobody wants to. So ... doing nothing much except shopping (and eating) whenever I can. I know I should stop buying things but haiz ... maybe it is a way relieving my frustration of not being able to do what I really want, of telling myself that I am unwanted by those I want to show my concern.

I so miss Su. It has been a while since I last saw her. She and Nd, I miss their laughter and smile. It warmths me, especially in an unfriendly environment.

We need love, plenty of love, from family and from friends. I lack the warmth of friendship, and Christmas always bring that thought to me. Maybe that is why I don't welcome Christmas so much as before. Ever since I realised that I miss the warmth of a friend. It don't matter when one has nobody, but when one has found people that one cares as much as one's family, one wishes so much to be able to celebrate Christmas with them. I love my friends as much as my family, like they are part of my own family.

That is why it hurts ....

Donut goes well with Priceless

Found another donut shop at Meridien Orchard, located on the same level as foodcourt. Donut seems to be the "in" thing to eat haha.

Speaking of that, KL seems to have the same situation. There is this eatery at Pavilion, I think it is a new shopping mall there, some shops are not opened yet. It reminded me of VivoCity but is bigger then our VivoCity. And there is even a Food Republic in the mall. We had a nice Penang rojak there. I will not be surprised if there is a Singaporean co-owner.

Back to the donut ... there is even a long queue happening. But unlike DF at Suntec, the eatery there has plenty of sitting space. I wanted to try but my dear wasn't keen on eating donut. So sad! For me! haha

Speaking of Pavilion, the new cinema there had a promotion going on while we were there. Just using a cut-out coupon from the daily newspaper, one could get to see a movie for free, though there were limited choices to watch. Just a coupon could get in two people, and we got ourselves a free movie, we selected a french movie as the others we had already seen.

If I am not mistaken, when it was showing here in Sg, it was a R21 rating. There, I could see children watching the movie with their parents. Of course, the censor was at work so there was no nudity. But the theme wasn't suitable for children. Obviously the parent wasn't advice. I bet they were uncomfortable during the movie haha. Basically, the story was about a woman who seduced rich man so she could live in luxury. Along the way, she met an average guy who falls for her, spending all his money so he could please her. But by chance, a rich lady spotted him, starting his life of a gigolo, but at the same time having his love for the girl of his dream. The movie was fun to watch. Think the title of the movie is "Priceless".

Hmmmv ... I still have a piece of donut leftover in my fridge, think I will go eat it now. So ..... that is all for this entry .. haha

Time for giving

I messaged Nd. I suppose I couldn't help it. I was feeling frustrated ... and sad. Z didn't reply. It just happened that I did something for Nd, and somehow I told her how I felt. I didn't want to as previously when I did, it didn't go well. I felt she avoided me. Maybe I shouldn't .... but now I can't undo, unlike typing this posting. If only she can be around always when I need someone to talk .... a friend to comfort me. But she don't consider me a friend .... just a colleague. But I am thankful that I am still able to sms her, unlike Su.

Life is hard ... when one don't have a friend that one can turn to to confide. Sometimes one wants someone else beside the family. I must try to keep things to myself again. Like I used to. I suppose I need to try harder ...

For now, those I called friends, I will only seek to make them happy, to help them if I find that I can. My world of friendship is only to give. If I can make them happy, it will be enough. I will not expect more. Expectation can be disappointing. All I want is the feeling of being wanted by them. That I can be of help. I will not ask anything in return. I will not feel being used. What I do is because I want to. To see my friends happy, to be able to do something for them, that is enough. I will be happy.

Disappointment is when I am not asked when I can do it. That will make me more unhappy.

I had always been the one who is giving my friendship, not taking. So .. it is time I go back to do what I can do best. I will not ask for more. Time to give myself again ... to those I care .. to those I consider my friends.

It will be like Christmas always for them .... and I will be happy!

Capitol Trip

Oh wow! It is December! One month to clear before 2008 ....

I haven't been blogging the last few days because I was away in Kuala Lumpur. And came back at night and work the next morning, didn't give me time to blog.

So ...

It was a good trip, though it wasn't a smooth start before the trip. So many disappointments but we finally went on Sunday. It was shopping and eating everyday. I believe my salary is all gone even before December. Hmm .. it is going to be a difficult christmas not able to spend freely .. haha.


This is me, well my shoe anyway, inside the coach.












I managed to persuade my dear to hang out at this open-air spot where a live band was performing. It was cool, hanging out with the mostly Malays audience, watching this malay band. Can't say much about their singing, but I enjoyed the atmosphere.



Soon it was time to go back to Sg. We only hungout at Bukit Bintang where we were staying. It saved us on taxi money since we were not there to tour, just eating and lots of shopping, and eating. I wish we could stay longer. But I suppose 3 nights and 4 days are good enough.

Before the trip, I had messaged to 3 dear people, got 2 replys, though I was a little apprehensive that I would hear from them at that time as most of the time they didn't reply. It is enough to be able to hear from them. It means a lot to me. Though I didn't mention about my trip, I had sent the smses because I need a friendly voice (in this case, sms) to comfort me, that it would be fine. I was feeling stress in a way. Maybe to them it was just another sms, but Nd and Z smses had comfort me, without them knowing. If only I could message more, but I suppose that would be too much to expect.

There are a few people I like to keep in touch with constantly. I want to know if they are alright but I am happy enough that I get any response from them once a while.

I have lower my expectation of getting friendship from those I care, but I will still give them all within me to be a good friend to them. For real friends are hard to get. I don't want to lose those I have found.