The frustration inside is building up again! Dammed!! I don't use words like "damned" "fuck" "pissed off" "asshole" etc in the real world. I do wonder how I have avoided it all my life. Only word I used is "shit". But this is blogworld, so I can use them, I don't care anymore. I am pissed off! There I used it again.
Today I saw all three of them, I wish I could work with them. It seems that I am often assign to do what they are doing only when they are not doing it. Dammed rosterer!
I avoid talking to my parents. I will only be angry. It is happening again. I get frustrated with simple things. So it is better to remain silence. If I can't say nice things, I may as well not say anything.
I have to learn to hide my feeling again.
I can't help feeling angry at everything. This friendship thing is hurting me. And it will stay for a long time. Even though I have convinced myself not to find any more friends, I can never shake away the feeling of those I have cared. Whether of those twenty years ago or a year ago, they are all in my heart. I wish they will accept me. But I know it is impossible.
Not having anybody you care and not having anybody is two different things. I have somebody, yet still have nobody. That hurts.
Parting is such ...
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It is easy to miss someone, but hard to forget that person, especially you
are close, have strong feeling for that person. So don't stay away, keep in
touc...
14 years ago
