Feeling unwanted

Nothing else I can do about the result, just hope she will study harder next year.

Haiz ... everytime I was looking forward to it, I was disappointed that they are not interested in the trip. Maybe I will just go alone.

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The team had the chalet, though the invitation was to all, nobody was interested if I went or not. I could hear them discussing about it, but nobody approached me. Since I wasn't wanted, I didn't go. And to think that I had thought of bbq for them!

I don't want to be seemed sensitive, I had let it go at work when I wasn't asked to join them, but it got too much for me to accept that they don't bother if I was there. There were some I like to mix around with outside of work. I feel so unwanted. Well, if colleagues that they want, I will just be that .. a colleague!

There were still some from my old team that I still care that we can be friends, but I know that they will only treat me as a colleague. I am always unlucky in not able to make friends with those I like. Time and time again, I get disappointed. Maybe I should try harder in forgetting about looking for good friends. There is no such things as friend in the workplace, or anywhere, for me.

My life is just a circle of four.

And it can be really disappointing when I have no option when the circle is so small .... haiz :(