It is not easy to want to open up but those who I want to open up to doesn't want to listen. Blogging is my only solution, but it also means that I am showing my fear and weakness. I thought if I stopped opening up altogether I would feel better. But it also means that I bottled up and cried more. I need their help but I didn't get any.
I will blog, Fad. Thank you for wanting to read. I guess I need an audience ... and to know that there is an audience. To know that someone care enough to want to read my life and my thoughts. Blogging is also my diary which I can flip back to when my memory is no longer as good. Well, even now, I have memory lapse, which can be quite bad at times.
I am not what I was, I don't know what I am or want to be. Only time will tell ....
Yesterday I saw two movies back to back. I haven't done that for a long long time. Back when I was in secondary, (wow, that seems so ancient and makes me so old haha) I used to watched two to three movies in a day at one shot. Back then one has to travel some distances to get to the next cinema, not like today when one can get different movies at one spot. Favourite was from Capitol to Odeon to Cathay. Once a while will be Orchard, Cathay and Capitol/or Odeon combination. And sometimes all the way to Lido/Cathay combination, which is from one end to the other end of Orchard Road, and/or Capitol or Odeon haha. I was a mad movie addict :-)
Today going to the cinema is not as fun. If one chose not to channel surf between HBO(including the 3 sub-HBO), StarMovies and Cinema, one can watch a few movies in one location, if provided one can find nice movies to watch. I suppose the hopping from one cinema to another cinema was an adventure for me which I totally enjoyed back then, apart from the movies themselves hehe.
Parting is such ...
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It is easy to miss someone, but hard to forget that person, especially you
are close, have strong feeling for that person. So don't stay away, keep in
touc...
14 years ago
