My Raya

On Friday, I had my BBQ. I didn't had any with my colleagues, they were not interested and didn't seem to miss me. To think I wanted to cook for them. Never mind, at least I can do for this group.

I had to wait a while when I went down to the chalet, they had some errant to do. That left me less time to spend as I need to go off early. The barbeque didn't started till about eight o'clock. At least I was happy cooking for them. I always enjoyed suntanning over the pit haha. Quite simply, I just love cooking for people.

It was a small group as the others never showed up. But the all malay company was nice. Even had a baby there, who I played with for a while while the mother played with the others. Too bad I couldn't stay over as I had to work in the morning.

On Saturday, I went to watch them perform at a Hari Raya function. When I heard the raya song that I often played, the one sung by Dayang, I couldn't help shedding a tear, as the song filled the hall. As I watched everyone wearing their best bajus, I felt a little satisfied. Together with the chalet thing, it is the closest I get to celebrating Hari Raya.

I don't think I want to have any expectation for next year. This two years has been a disappointment as much as joy as I seek to spend Raya. It will goes the way I felt for CNY ... and Christmas. At least for Christmas, I still get the excitement of looking for presents. Gone is the desire for Christmas song too :(

haiz ...

What joy it is to find happiness in celebration ...