Her Birthday

Nordiana's birthday is tomorrow. Happy Birthday Nordiana! May all her wishes come true! Well, I didn't get my wish, that is to celebrate her birthday with her, cake and all. But that is not her problem, but mine. I do wish her that she will have a great time. I hope she can celebrate with her friends.

And so another person that I want to celebrate with but I can't. Two in the same month. That is real disappointing for me. But I suppose it is to be expected. Afterall, I am not anything to them. Just a mere acquaintance in a space of their lives.

I saw Suhaili today when I went back to work. Even though we don't speak, she did smile, and that did help to start my day. Maybe that had helped me to feel more tolerable of the rest of the day. Coz I didn't feel any frustration or anger, even when something didn't go right. Seeing her gave me a good mental attitude. Don't understand? haha. Nevermind. I hope she will be fine. I don't think the kind of work we do is suitable for a pregnant lady. There are too many possible accident waiting to happen. And she don't seem strong. I hope she will make it this time. I can only pray for her and the baby good health. Her birthday is coming in August. I know it will be another one that I will not be part of too.

Nevermind. All that matter is, I do care for them, even if they don't feel the same towards me. They have become a part of those people that I will always consider my friends. I am just unlucky that I can't be accepted to be their good friend.

Sometimes, I wish I am female too, maybe it will make the difference ... maybe then it is easier to be their good friend. Maybe it don't make any difference ....