August 1st

Suhaili's birthday is coming, wondering if I should wish her. I can drop a message on her facebook. Probably she will not even acknowledge my message, as often she had chosen to ignore messages that I sent.

She could have been my best friend ....

Cry with me, not for me.

Don't dwell on the sadness, or you will miss the happy stuff. Life may seem short, but don't make it shorter.

If I should die, I will not want those I care and love to be sad. I want them to remember the happy time we shared.

Don't cry for me when I am gone, you should cry with me when I am still around, to share time with me, and keep me company when I am lonely. Smile with me, laugh with me. When I am gone, I will not hear your crying. I can't comfort you, which I very much will want to do.

I want to share time with you while I still can. Will you let me?

work or dream ...

Last week I saw Marina Bay Sand as I was going to Lau Pau Sat. MBS looks awesome, a good place to work, before I retire. But of course it will be just a wish, a dream. Not likely to happen as I doubt I can get a new job that is comfortable for a living to support myself and my family at my age.

I had enjoyed working in the hotel line, I enjoyed F&B too. I wish I had chosen it again when I came back from Phuket. I just grab the first job I could. I don't know, whether it is good or bad choice, there is no turning back.

So I can only dream on ....

nice guy is not for keeping

It is not worth being a nice guy!

Yesterday, a new colleague said I was a nice guy. Again another person has said that. So what?!! What is the point of being a nice guy if one is alone and feeling lonely? I don't get invite to join them when they relax and having their meals. Or when they have social outing. I am only good for being there to help them.

A nice guy is someone who one goes to when the usual friend is not there to help. A nice guy is not someone one will have when one wants to have fun. Nice to have, but not for keeping!

Curse of being a nice guy!