friends will leave...

I am selective in friends, preferring few close friends. I don't want friends in word, but need friends in companionship. To spend time together whenever we can, as time is short. To care for them. One by one they left, or will leave, without me getting to build that friendship. I envy others for getting the time with them, that I don't get. They get to travel, do many activities outside of work. Even at work, the other colleagues had bonding time with them. I am a failure, a loser in friendship. I treasure friendship and do not let little issues affect my friendship. All I ask was for them to accept me. But friendship needs 2 people to make it happen. I had given myself the chance to look for close friend, I did find a few. now before I get really depressed, I must accept that I will not have any close friend.