Helping hand

I wish I could go KL this weekend, but I can't. I want to take another break. I feeling frustrated again.

At least I managed to help a couple of colleagues, helping people at least distract me from my frustration. I hate to work, but working makes me forget that I don't have anyone to spend time with when I am on break. I am willing to forfeit my break if I can find someone to be with, even if it is work. I want to feel useful, that I am wanted by those I like. I will not be like before. I will only spare my time to those I want to help.

Also, there was another person I had helped yesterday. It was hard trying to persuade her to let me help her. I hope I was able to relieve her of some of her problems.

Another week is passing. The checkup is nearing. I don't know how it will go.

If only I have someone to club with regularly. Yet, maybe I shouldn't dream of clubbing. Sometimes I do wish I have someone to go clubbing with regularly. At least there will be something to look forward to. It would help lessen my frustration.

It is frustrating seeing others spending time together but I can't .... but I want to be happy for them. At least they don't have to be like me .... being friendless!

There is a difference between wanting to be alone, and being left alone.