Food and good company ...

Today, I had nasi lemak, after a long absent of eating this local dish. I had a craving for this a month ago, but with the sore throat and bad cough, I had opt to miss it for a while. I still have my cough, but heck lah, after seeing a colleague eating it yesterday, I must eat it.And ate it I did haha.

Next on my craving list, is satay. It has been more than two years, longer than I missed nasi lemak. But wait, I didn't really miss eating nasi lemak, just feeling the urge to eat it. But as for satay, yes, I do miss it. Somehow I didn't get round to eating it. I suppose because the family are not too fond of eating this. I like satay, mutton and beef, with the ketupat and cucumber. And the peanut gravy must be thick and good.

If I don't find anybody to enjoy it with, I will have to do it alone then. This month is the final deadline for me to get my hand on satay!!

I know I can always eat alone. But I have been eating and doing things alone for as long as I could remember. I was hoping things would change. But having a family of my own, still doesn't guarantee that I will not do things alone. I don't have any friend that I could find if I want to go for eating session. Not many places are accessable too if one don't have any car of one's own. I depend on my dear if I want to eat, but sometimes she doesn't want to. I don't want to eat alone. Not anymore!


But it seems eating alone may have to be my option again. If I want to eat. I had hope when I met Suhaili. That I would have someone to go eat with, and a buddy to confide. It was not meant to be. I saw her today again. I was thinking, "Why can't I work with her?" Even if I can't be her friend, at least we could be working together. A chance to talk. A smile from her, that would have brighten my life at work. Maybe she would grow to like me as a friend. Maybe. If only I could work with Nordiana and the others too. It is so unfair, that people who don't like them get to work and talk to them, while I can't.

Again, my posting deviate to them, but I have always care so much for them. Each and everyone who has touched my life. Even those I have never met but only feel their presence online. Yes, I shouldn't hold back my feeling on my blog, for I don't know how long I will be blogging. For how long they will come to read my blog. I already fear that I have lost Fadhillah. haiz ... nothing last forever, no matter how much I want it to. Especially people that I wish can be my friends ... that I care.

I don't want to eat alone, but unless I stop eating, I have no choice but accept reality that eating alone is not an option. It is a way of life.

Food is to be share and enjoy among good companions. To have good food and great company, that is what delight the heart, and warm the soul.

Nope, this is not a quotation from any source, just my own. How I wish it can be applied to me ....