I can only listen to the song over and over again, keeping it on loop. The song is my link to her, and to another person. But tonight it is only her that is in my thoughts as I listen to the song. I wanted so much to be with her on this special day, but I can't, I dare not.
Maybe two years ago, I would, but things have changed. I have lost my hope, my expectation. Friendship is not mind to seek. It will always be a distance, so I may as well keep it at a distance. I dare not expect. When you want something so bad, the more disappointment it is when things doesn't come. All I wish now is that she will be happy.
I have been waiting for this day, and it has become past tense. Till next year come ...
So ... for the moment, I will listen to Pudar, as memory will fade in time. Of memory that this song I first heard from her blog.
Pudar ... fading ... just as my hope has faded.
Parting is such ...
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It is easy to miss someone, but hard to forget that person, especially you
are close, have strong feeling for that person. So don't stay away, keep in
touc...
14 years ago
