Friends and amusement park

I have all along believe that if one cannot have them as your close friends, the next best thing is working or doing things together. Maybe in time they will accept you. If there is time ...

I may be losing someone again ...

I have no friends outside of my workplace. My colleagues are all I have. I enjoy their companionship, it makes going to work more acceptable. Work may not be friendly, but having friends make the workplace friendly. It helps reduce the stress level.

If friendship goes beyond the workplace, that will be ideal. But ideal don't happen often. Dreams are make of meeting up at some malls and shopping together, meeting up for food session, going to the movie, or just hanging out to chitchat. Dreams will remain a dream.

I need them for companionship, for friends are just as important as family, if not more. I may be easy to get along with, but like everyone, I do choose whom I like to be close with. The trouble is they may not feel the same. Yes, colleague okay, but they don't choose me as someone they want to have as a close friend ... a best friend. I suppose that they being female makes it more difficult, as people see male-female friendship bondage is not possible. I do. That is why I have never stop my wife from having a male best friend.

I need a best friend ... everyone does. But I have yet to get one, even though I have found a few I like. I am not fated to have a best friend. I envy others who have, even jealous. Long ago, when my wife had no friend, I was hoping that my friends can be hers too. Now, she had found a few, yet I still have nobody. I can only envy her when she goes out with them for eating sessions or hanging out. I have only the workplace to hope for, hoping everyday that I may be lucky to have someone to keep me company. But only at work, as outside the workplace, I do not have anyone that I can go out with if my wife does not want to accompany me.

As I have written countless of times on my blogs, I feel empty of friends, as those I have at work, in reality are actually only colleagues. Once work is over, I don't get to see or socialise with them. I wish I can. It is like going to an amusement park, happy while you are there, but once you leave the place, you are left only with the memory.

I wish my world can be an amusement park ... and I can have my friends with me always ...