losing her ...

I miss her.

Losing her friendship sadden me. I still thought about the time we had chatting on msn. She was like a best friend .... well, she was my best friend in a way. We would chat almost everyday, talking about almost everything. Maybe I had been too honest with my opinion. I realised now that she wasn't keen on arguing with me when times we had different views. I was too honest about how I felt. I thought being friends one can give honest opinions. I guess I was wrong.

I guess I was wrong in more way than I thought. To me she may be a best friend, but I doubt now that I am to her. She just consider me an online acquaintance. It does make me sad realising this. I like her alot, and hoping we could be best friend online and maybe eventually as real best friend. Maybe I should have shown my face, if that was what could make her comfortable and trust that I really want to be her friend. I was thinking that true friends don't need that, but just honest relationship.

Sometimes being too honest with what we say doesn't work. Like in this case. I have lost someone I wanted to be a best friend. I miss chatting with her. I miss knowing how she is getting on, what she eats for lunch, if she have any breakfast. I miss knowing how her daughter is doing.

Most of all I miss her .... I miss our friendship.