Aches ... all over

This is killing me .... but what else do I have?

Next to dancing, I really wish I can have a best friend. But it is unlikely I will have any. Despite having a family, I feel lonely. It is like there is a gap in my life.

I can only turn to dancing, hoping to fill up whatever gap there is. But my body isn't what it used to be. I am feeling the aches all over my body from the rehearsals. My feet feel like it doesn't want to walk, my knees are back to giving me problem. My shoulder, my neck, all shouting for me to keep still. But I can't. I don't want to. For if I don't have my dance, I will go insane. I will feel empty of what makes me feel alive. Next to having friends to make me feel important, I need dancing for motivation.

There is only so much that having a family can do. I used to think that having a family will do. Just me and them. And nobody else. But it has left me being a frustrated man. Now .... it seems that being a frustrated man is the only thing to be.

A frustrated man who must dance with all the aches .... body and heart.