I have lower my expectation so much from those I consider my friends, not that I have any choice. I know I can't expect them to treat me as I will of them. To me, they are important in my life, even more if they can be my close friends, but I know it can never be. I don't feel it from them. I am just a casual acquaintance to them, somebody they do not feel close as compare to their other friends.
Expectation can be tiring after not getting what I feel is important to me. They could have help me. But I don't blame them for not choosing to have me as their close friend. I still will care for them. Something that one feels with the heart, it is not easy to let go. Not that I want to anyway. They will always be part of my memory ... if I can still have any, since I know my memory is bad. Especially with details.
One day, it will all be gone. And I will have nothing ... nothing to treasure, and that scares me. Because not having their friendship, memory is all I have ...
Expectation ... can one live without any?
Parting is such ...
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It is easy to miss someone, but hard to forget that person, especially you
are close, have strong feeling for that person. So don't stay away, keep in
touc...
14 years ago
