my dream is a dream only.

My dream, my wish ..... Why is it always so hard to have a close friend? My dream if having a close friend seems so unattainable. It is not that I haven't one. In fact I found a few that seems so likely, but turned out a failure. My fault. I was stupid to share how I felt. They were not even a friend. I am only an uncle. I took their friendliness as wanting to be friend. They were just being kind. I don't blame them for misunderstanding me. I wish they had talk to me first. But they were angry, and anger has never been reasonable. I will not try to explain, don't think they will listen anyway. Haiz .... I am always unlucky. I only regret that I have lost any chance of being friend with them. I will like to visit them when they get married, to see them at their happiest moment. I miss them already.