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Perhaps it is just as well that I don't have access to my PC as often nowadays. Maybe it is time I stop blogging. Who reads anyway? Not the friends that I treasure, friends that I want to share, knowing about their lives and telling about mine. Why should they bother about my problems?

I do care about theirs if any ....

Maybe I should finally do what I have been telling myself to do ... keep quiet, like I used to be.

It is time to end my blogging, and be the nobody.

Erti hidup .... the insanity of my life ......

August 1st

Suhaili's birthday is coming, wondering if I should wish her. I can drop a message on her facebook. Probably she will not even acknowledge my message, as often she had chosen to ignore messages that I sent.

She could have been my best friend ....

Cry with me, not for me.

Don't dwell on the sadness, or you will miss the happy stuff. Life may seem short, but don't make it shorter.

If I should die, I will not want those I care and love to be sad. I want them to remember the happy time we shared.

Don't cry for me when I am gone, you should cry with me when I am still around, to share time with me, and keep me company when I am lonely. Smile with me, laugh with me. When I am gone, I will not hear your crying. I can't comfort you, which I very much will want to do.

I want to share time with you while I still can. Will you let me?

work or dream ...

Last week I saw Marina Bay Sand as I was going to Lau Pau Sat. MBS looks awesome, a good place to work, before I retire. But of course it will be just a wish, a dream. Not likely to happen as I doubt I can get a new job that is comfortable for a living to support myself and my family at my age.

I had enjoyed working in the hotel line, I enjoyed F&B too. I wish I had chosen it again when I came back from Phuket. I just grab the first job I could. I don't know, whether it is good or bad choice, there is no turning back.

So I can only dream on ....