holiday ... i need it

It has been months and months I said I wanted to go KL, or even Phuket, again, but has not done so. It is because I dont have anyone to go with me yet. Haiz ... I don't want to go alone. But it seems likely I may have to go alone, as I don't have anybody to go with.

Haiz ....

I need a holiday again, I need to break my repetitive sequence of my current status.

If only they will want to go with me ....

Birthday wishes to Blackcat13

May all your wishes come true, Blackcat13!

colleague only

Samsidar turned a year older the other day, happy birthday!

People I come into contact with changes every now and then. It will do so again. Colleagues comes and goes. I wish we can be friends, close friends, doing things together outside of work. But I can only be a colleague. It is frustrating not feeling wanted, but they have other friends, who are more than colleagues. So am I to expect anything more. That is how it is, and will always be.

I need someone more than a colleague ....

My pain, my pain ..

Finally went back to CGH for a checkout, strange that the hospital didnt set any appointment for the surgery. Is it the norm that a person is left uncheck after an operation?

Even though the doctor said I was fine, I can't help feeling that it is more than meet the eyes. He said the pain is due to the nerve reconnecting, set an appointment in April for scanning. I don't know, I still feel that something is not fine inside. I have to wait till April to see what the scan will reveal. In the meantime, I just have to ignore the pain, which I still am getting yesterday ....

Once the body is cut open, it will never be the same again!

I miss my "friends", I want to spend time with them .... I am scared ... that I will never get the chance to do so ...