Seindah Biasa

I don't care if I still have my cough. I ate ice-cream this morning, for breakfast haha. And how nice it is to eat chocolate again, starting eating them two days back.

The thing about me puasa is that I don't have anybody that I can join when it is time to break fast. Officially I have no reason to do so, so it is between me and Him. That is how it should be anyway.

I like this song Seindah Biasa when I first heard it sung by Suki Low in OIAM. This original version is sung by Siti Nurhaliza. I love this song.


Btw, can anyone tell me what Seindah Biasa means? haha

Circumcision and circumstances

Weekend was here and gone, without me venturing into any mall, haiz. Missed the chance of getting this Vaio on offer, wrong timing. Didn't have time as I got to work early the last few days. Still two more days of the same. I can't wait for my off day so I can go look for this Fried Mars. Looking forward to try it, heard it is delicious. And also to go Geylang or Arab Street maybe. I haven't had malay food this past week. I want to eat spicy food, eat those kuihkuih.

Read in the newspaper about this female circumcision in Egypt. How gross! A 13year old girl died while having her clitoris removed! How can people do this and cite it as religious? The country has banned it but some still practiced this inhuman "circumcision", sometimes done by a barber or whoever else in the village. People, well the men in particular, often is the culprit, not the religion.

"As a male society, the men took parts of religion that satisfied men and inflated it. The parts of the Quran that helped women, they ignored."

How true this often is. Even in the Christian world.

Sometimes I wish I can live life differently, but in all due circumstances, I may still ended up doing the same thing. I may not like the result, but there is nothing else I can do, as we are living at the mercy of others action, or inaction. No matter what people will tell you, that you are the master of what you do, in truth, we don't. Life is inter-related with other lives. We can only learn to accept it, and hopefully, learn to be happier with what we have.

20th September

Thursday, one more day till the weekend cometh. Though it makes no diff to me actually. There is still the resonating echo wherever I go, the sound of my cough. Sometimes I tried to dull the sound, but when it have to come, it comes, right down from the chest, as though I may accidentally cough out my lung one of these days.

Su is on hospital leave, I don't know what happened, I do hope she is okay, or will be.

I miss them, all of them. I wish I can just sms them. Haiz....

I may not fast this year. Somehow it doesn't feel the same. Last year I was so interested. I may tried to find the time to read again, maybe that will bring back the mood to want to fast. Yesterday did tried, but tired so didn't get much pages done, three pages only. And I had been reading this book more than four months ago. Very slow progress. I have forgotten what was in the 1st chapter already. Maybe I should change another book, and later come back to this one, hopefully haha.

I did bought several books few months back but haven't put in the effort to read them. Perhaps the idea of getting the books were more exciting than actually reading them. I guess it had always been like that, even when I was collecting my comics when I was young. Hey, there were still several (to put it mildly as it is actually alot hehe) comics I haven't read, and it had been many many years already haha.

As I was saying, weekend does not mean much when one is working on shift, except that if I do get the chance to go to the mall, there will be plenty of things to see, compare with weekdays. Did anyone go the nike sales at Suntec yesterday? I didn't have time to pop in, think it should be good, the sign said up to 80% discount. sigh, what a waste!

September is ending soon, soon it will be December. Is this how I see life, by months if not days? Give me something to hold on to the day, that will want me to wish that it will stay still .....

At home with Wyatt

Got up from sleep, well if you can call it sleep haha. Think I was in bed for maybe just an hour. Can't remember if I sleep at all lolx.

Had gotten back from Suntec for lunch, walked around abit, did some groceries at Carrefour. Felt sleepy and tired, just walking a few steps and I wanted to sit down. So headed home. I was still weak. Of course lah, since didn't get to eat my energy food like donuts, cheesecakes, ice-cream and CHOCOLATE!

I think I am a bit better, no, much better than yesterday, but still, I am sick. WORSE THAN GETTING SICK IS BEING SICK!

Yesterday I watched Wyatt Earp, the one starring Kevin Costner. Did saw it before. Wyatt Earp was among my childhood legendary western heroes. There were several movies with Wyatt Earp character in the movies, recent one include the one with Kurt Russell. Some protrayed him as good, some as bad. Maybe he was a bit of both. But his story is legendary. This particular version has him trying to uphold justice, I say justice becuase as everyone knows, the law can work on both sides. The spectacular visual of 4 guys standing in the middle of the street, holding their guns/rifles is legendary, then walking towards their enemies.

More than a western, it is a story of brotherly love and bond, his brothers could just leave him, but they never did. When one of the brother died, I couldn't help crying with him. And then there were other people who stuck with him, like Bat Masterson and Doc Holliday. One phrase that Doc spoke strike a cord in me, and made me teary again:

"I will be there for you".

And he meant every word of it. Though they hardly knew each other, he had felt that this man, Wyatt Earp, was worth dying for. Well, he was dying of TB anyway, but he treated Wyatt as a special friend.